Uni Life

It's been such a long time for me to actually write something here(always have the intention but lack of motivation).Well,my life recently,is totally different compare to last time(when i sa y last time,it's only three weeks ago).I come to a place that i don't have much idea with,far from my home town,almost out of the range of Malaysia,never heard of any good things bout it.It's Perlis.Seriously,i do not know how am i suppose to survive  stay in this place.Imagine it's your first time come a place like this,u dont recognize a thing,u don't like almost everything here,and they tell you that you will have to stay here for four years.FOUR YEARS!I couldn't stand for even a week man.but i have to pretend to   put a brave front and be tough.i do not have any choices,this is my only way to go.(i have to admit this.)Peeps here are so different from my old lovely frens,they are different in the way of speaking,even the way they think,And i think i'm becoming a weirdo here,while thinking that all of them are weirdos.HAHAHA.Anyway,it's late and i think i better gain some sleep(this is uni life,sleep while u can.).pray to god,pls let me survive this.Night,world.

:) *it's a fake smile*

I'm looking for a suitable word to describe these recent days,after i start my form 6 school life. Disaster is the word .I don't know what to say anymore,words couldn't fully describe my feelings,nothing could.Well,i forgot when is the last time i really laugh my heart out,now,i could hardly even smile,although i tried my very best to force myself to.Believe it or not,it's not because of those stupid idiot homework,not even those freaking scary syllabus too,yea..i never really take a heart of those things.What makes me felt so dispirited was actually  the surroundings,those hypocrite people around me,those who take advantages of me for granted,the feeling of not being understood ,the fear of unknown,everything and everything,i knew that i couldn't explain it well,i never did.I always believe that there's a better tomorrow,but now..i'm not so sure bout it anymore.If God really exists,i pray to you,please let me escape from this nausea world.

RESPECT ME AS I RESPECT YOU PLEASE.

I seriously couldn't believe that working for you is like giving my whole life to you.Yes,i can understand that you installed more than half a dozen of CCTV all around the shop is to prevent theft happen,to prevent us from stealing money from you(as if we will and we could...*shaking head disappointedly*).But  please..please..what you should really do is watching out for us but not WATCHING US AND STALKING US!C'mon la,poor business not our fault,we couldn't force those customer to come in and buy clothes from you wert,moreover with your worst quality and super fucking  freaking HIGH price of those shit  clothes..what more do you expect?Fine,i'm your worker and you're the big BOSS,maybe i should just shut my big mouth from complaining,but i just don't know that i could stand it for how long...Anyway,life still go on(although its sucks).
                                                          *pray for a better tomorrow*

I NEED TO APOLOGIZE

I try to figure out a right word to say this.All i could say is the word:Sorry...
I'm sorry that i'm not perfect,
I'm sorry that i'm not good enough for you
I'm sorry if i've being slight to you sometimes
I'm sorry that i'm kinda sentimental sometimes
I'm sorry that i'm not good at express my feelings
I'm sorry that i have said something stupid sometimes
I'm sorry that i couldn't be the one you expect me to be
I'm sorry that i pretend that you're nothing to me sometimes
I'm sorry that i used to put the blame on others instead of myself
I'm sorry that i'm not the person who can always be with you whenever you need me
I'm sorry that i can do nothing to compensate the mischief which i've bring but to say sorry.






TO MY FRIENDS,FAMILY,AND THE SPECIAL ONE...I'm really sorry.

Get out of my life.

I just wanna be alone.I just wanna stick with myself.Stop finding me because of some lame gossips which you wanna share with,i'm not interested to know all of that.Just...just..leave me alone okay?I don't know what exactly i wanna escape from,you probably.I felt comfort since leaving you,coz i'm sick of all those pretending,affectation stuff.Now i'm free from all of that,i'm glad.And please,i need time to forget you,i need time for myself to get you out of my mind,and for you to get me out of your mind too.Get a great sleep,night,to myself.

Disappear from your life.

I didn't know what's my problem is..i didn't dare to post anything in any social websites,my feelings,what am i doing or whatever.I don't wanna show up,i wanna hide myself,i wanna buried myself deep in my own lifeless world,but sometimes,i can't help thinking of you,thinking of the way look at me before,thinking of the way you smile,omg,then i'll distract myself,forced myself to do others things.i want you stay right here with me,but at the same time,i wanna evade from you.All the glee and sweet memories of us,the time we spent together,flashes inside my head every single second.I wanted to call you,ask you out,talk silly stuff to you,but i do not have the courage to do so,i'm a damn coward.It's hard for me,i'm suffering,but,all i can to is,disappear from your life.

Ah,Goodbye My Wonderful School life.

Alright,graduated from high school now.Imma adult,em,i means,reaching.yea,special feelings?nope,a little bit sorrow i think,but it's okay for me,separation between friends doesn't have a great impact on me,probably because i'm never too close with anybodies,there are some exception maybe,coz some of them(it only means one or two) quite intimate with me,i wish everybody have a glitter future,it's time to fly.I think i'll miss my alma mater quite much,i spent 11 years at there!I laughed,i cried,i act insane,i yelled,i danced,i walked,i talked,i eat,i broke school rules(all the time),i slept(especially during boring lessons),i had done too many crazy stuff  in this place.All these memories will never fade in my mind.Kiss you goodbye,my dear AMC.